Big thoughtful rant..
Do you ever get scared of going to sleep because you don’t want tomorrow to come cause you’re scared of what it may bring? It can either be good, things can go to plan like they’re supposed to.. Or something could happen that you don’t want to happen or don’t expect.. Hope can be lost, it can be found. I can’t help but worry for certain people in my life and I’m just hoping they’re okay because at the end of the day; my family and friends are the most important things to me and I never want harm to come to them..
I wish sometimes I could just go back to a certain point in time where everything was good and just freeze it there; no one was mad at me, no one was spreading rumours about me, no one was miserable. I hate that I’ve lost certain people that mean a lot to me, especially one.. (But hopefully that person will write to me, but then hopefully he wont because I don’t want him to go do that THING :( And if he has done that thing then he wont even be reading this..) But anyway, I hope that deep down people know me, and know I wouldn’t do some of the things I’ve been accused of and will just trust me again. But, I guess that’s not for me to decide..
P.S That recording is so going on repeat tonight..
